Its been a rough week…with lots of 6hour drives and visits to the Hospital and lots of cries for help that initially were, although acknowledged, far from resolved. After the whole ordeal of being diagnosed with a gynaecological cancer (endometrial or uterine cancer) last year and the operation to clear my body of this bad thing, the road to recovery has been tough.
There is hardly any support directly available or targeted at the gynaecological cancers or surgical menopause and the group of women who are suffering or have suffered this tremendous loss and were still trying to build a family are non existant. I have found that out the hard way; a month after the op my hormones were totally depleted and had left the building, leaving me in total chaos, feeling cold and most importantly feeling that her normally well functioning brain had left the country in search for a happier place. In short: total mayhem.
It is hard enough to deal with the cancer, the therapy and the loss that it holds, but it is amazing that women with what is called surgical menopause, women who have been hit by this traumatic train, are left to their own devices and in the past (I'm talking about the 19th century and early 20th century) have been wrongly diagnosed and sent to the loony bin ! The reason by the way that the medical procedure of taking the ovaries, tubes and uterus out is called a hysterectomy is because in the “olden days” medical society was convinced that women after a certain age were getting “hysterical” and it was probably caused by their female bits ..hence :”hysterectomy”..
Anyway, after a lot of searching I have come across a professor at the Royal Womens Hospital here in Melbourne who will not only be part of the menopause clinic that is already operating there but is adamant to start a program and research into surgical menopause …..because after centuries of poking around in womens bits hardly to no research has been done ! She asked me for my input and help and I will gladly donate time and effort to help other women going through all this. It may not be “out there” like breast cancer but it does affect lots of women and the fight against the gynaecological cancers , its treatment and the support women/families has to be built up more as soon as possible: The Ixchel Foundation is taking shape..now I just need to get my health in order first and foremostand.... apply to the powers that be for more time in a day ..lol…
Connected to all this I have come to realise that there needs to be more readily available support and media attention to the fact that so many people are trying to come to grips with infertility, being childless and all the grief that comes with it: society makes us believe that having children is normal and it happens to everyone. Let me tell you it is not: the % of couples going through IVF nowadays is only a small indication of the problems that exist in that area. Everybody needs to realise that, through no fault or often for no explained reason, couples cannot have children. Understanding that lots of people go through this and that trying to have a family is not all that easy has to be talked about and not pushed under the carpet.
In all of this I have discovered true friendship, overpowering Love and Strength that have helped me to fight and I thank all of you for your support in this very difficult period in my life.
Btw, as if that was not enough shit going on there was some new shit put on the pile when Paul tried to drive down the drive way coming back from footy training but found that instead of a drive we had a river going through and the car decided to bump into a tree….my newly repaired car! I am not one that yells out, fights or plays wrestling matches with my spouse but oh boy, did I yell now! After a fit of Tourettes I stormed off to the dyeing room and worked til 3am…so, I am talking to you universe! Yeah YOU! After all this crap you have given me the last %^%^ year I only want good stuff on my plate..not this crap ! “Sorry guys, just had to vent and hopefully the Powers that Be, while playing on Facebook and the world wide web, will read this now that it is riding the satellites…this is as formal a request I can think of…lol
Now –as Monty Python would say- now for something completely different ! I have been busy preparing for this update, finishing orders and doing some work as well for the Bendigo show coming up next month in between all the hospital visits and the testing, poking and prodding. So sit back, reflect, drool and stalk me anytime if you want to have these fibre babies knocking on your door ready to be cuddled :)
Yak camel silk hand dyed Tops 50g/AU$19 (last of this blend for some time so get it while it is hot!) This blend is super super nice to spin 50%baby camel, 20%yak, 30% tussah silk. It is soft, shiny and super luscious! Don’t miss out !
Yak Alpaca Wool hand dyed 10ply spun yarn
Dates to remember:
Bunny Spin ins at the Fibre Farm …….
Queensland Spinners Annual Craft Weekend @ the Mapleton Centre ……23-25July